post 105

i have realised, as i told matthew last thursday morning over a rare breakfast meeting, that i have to realign my expectations and my abilities.

i dont think i'd ever be as acadamically inclined as my sisters
or be as good sisters and daughters they are
but i dont think i'd lose out to them in terms of success
after all success is such a huge word, and entails many a definition in it.

so if u feel u suck big time in at right there u are
think again, u probably haven found what ure best at
and pray hard to God to show you where to go

cause i believe that when i entrust my life to God, he wont allow it to crash
just as he has led to to ah and sa, despite lousier results, i say with assurance i am where he wants me to be and am where i wont trade for anything

so i will just do what i can for As with God's strength and see where he leads me to from there.

i admire those who can blog in such straight language
though at times i despise them for painting a perfect, idealised picture of themselves to the world. so when they become ministers or u know impt govt figure they wont be slammed for anything vulgar.

and yup, i dont think id ever be someone like that tho yes i can and shuld and must contrain obscenities not just here but eradicate them from my brains.

why is it so hard to be good and so easy to be bad?

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